Inside the head of a Princess

You how when you know you need to do something… But deep inside, you don’t want to? That’s where I am right now. I am torn. I just need to do this. I know it’s for the best. I have to do this. I’ve been distracted for too long. But at the same time I don’t want to let go of the things I’ve grown accustomed to, for fear that it might forget me… Honestly? I don’t want to do this. But it seems that I don’t have a choice. Well, I do. Sort of. Either one big blow now, or small constant blows for until who-knows-when. I choose the former. I choose to face the music, suck it up and move along. At this moment? I’m getting ready for the pain that this will bring, many questions this will stir. But hey, I’m thinking long term right? This is for the long term. Who knows, God may bring this back to me in the proper time. If it is true, it will still be there no matter what. I will do this. I’ve been putting it off for too long. It’s just that… I’m scared. But in my uncertainty, I also choose to trust. I trust in Him. I am laying down my good for His best. Right now, He’s all I have…

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