(This entry is exclusive to my Friendster account. My mother has been commenting on my blogs on Multiply. I don’t like it. And none of my friends ever read my Friendster blog anyway.)
In honor of my shoutout… WHY DO I EVEN TRY??
Things just pretty much blow up in my face anyway. I always end up scratching my head by myself and mainly dumbfounded over what just happened. It sucks. It really does. and WHY do I even do it? Ilang beses nako napahiya… Ilang beses nakong iniwan sa ere… But WHY IN THE WORLD DO I CONTINUE TO TRY?
Am I completely retarded? Have I been too stupid? Why trust completely? Why trust anyone completely? I hate this feeling. And now, I guess, I have to make sure that it NEVER happens to me again. EVER. I will not be vulnerable. Not again.
I just really want to blow steam off, sorry. I’m fuming mad. And the most frustrating part is, I can’t even be mad because I essentially don’t have the right to! How stupid of me to put myself in this position, right? RIGHT?
To showcase how mad I am… I left school at 5PM. On an odd hour like 5PM, it takes 45mins for me to get home. It is now 7PM, and I just arrived. I walked. I walked all around Trinoma in a furious pace. Then I decided to just go home because I wanted to punch everyone in sight. Para naman hindi ako magkaron ng criminal record, uwi na lang ako diba. Pero once I got inside the jeep, I wanted to shove everyone out the door, screaming in anger. Tapos, gusto kong ihagis yung phone ko sa kalsada para masagasaan ng mga rumaragasang bus at jeepney sa EDSA. So I decided to go down from the jeepney and just walk home. Yup. I walked home from Trinoma. And I took the super long way. Umikot-ikot pako. And after a while, I was too tired to be mad. But when I got home, someone texted. And I got mad all over again. Which brings me to the question…
WHY DO I EVEN TRY?
Never again. Never. EVER. EVER.
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