I’m counting on the fact that my Friendster Blog doesn’t get as much traffic from my friends as my other blogs. Haha. Here goes.
It’s just incredibly frustrating to me and I have to let it out.
Know how some things just don’t go the way that you planned it, no matter how hard you work on it? I feel like so many circumstances have kept me from doing this one thing and it kills me that I have to let people down again and again and again… And there’s nothing I can do about it.
I will tell you one thing: It’s made me more patient about people who don’t come up with what I expect at the exact moment that I expect it. People flub around me all the time and I used to think that they used circumstance as a lame excuse for something that they didn’t actually want to do. But here I am finding out that bad stuff DOES really happen. And you mean to do something but everything falls out and you JUST CAN’T. Circumstances change and are beyond your control. All that’s left to do is to suck it up.
I want to get mad. I want to get mad SOOO BAD. But the thing is, if I let myself get mad over this, I will most probably get mad at those I let down because they’re the ones that are closest to me. And it doesn’t seem fair that I let them down AND get mad at them on the same day. It really doesn’t make sense to do that. But then WHY am I so tempted to get mad? Grr. It’s incredibly frustrating. It really is.
I want to get mad at someone because my day didn’t turn out my way. I just want to tear my hair out and scream so long. And loud.
Man, I’m one spoiled person, aren’t I?
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